Living in the Future

Is it just me? Wherever I go, church-wise, I always seem to be one step ahead in vision or desire of where the church is at.

When I was in a conservative congregation, I longed for contemporary worship - tried to introduce it, got only so far then got black-listed by the pastor and a few elders. I envisioned a vibrant kid's church programme, attempted it, and found the kids were too influenced by their conservative parents to relate to contemporary kid's ideas - scary! No-one could understand what I was talking about.

Then got into contemporary worship in a different church as a musician - yet my soul is hankering after "emerging church" type fellowship and community, radically different ways of "doing worship", and I'm getting frustrated with the contemporary pattern that never seems to change, a kind of "default worship". And again no-one knows what I'm talking about.

By the time I find a group that has the same current head-space as me, it will likely be old news, and my longings will have moved on to other things!

I wonder if I'll ever find myself in a church or group that is doing what my soul is looking for, right when I'm looking for it.

Perhaps I'm just the Odd One Out.