It Ain't Pretty

There's a lot going on in my mind today, and if I were to blog about it, it wouldn't be pretty. I'm not sure that as a Christian attempting to "be church" it would be a good idea to say "out loud" what's going on in the head. But hey, what are blogs for.

After only a few days back at work it's stressing me out no end. The new year has come dragging all the old baggage with it - the same lack of logical thought or decision making by the powers-that-be, the same old crap, the same old mis-treatment of us bottom-feeders. It's hard to maintain a God-like attitude and treat those around you with respect and love when they're flinging dirt at you and covering you up in any junk they can lay their hands on.

I really am trying, but the results ain't pretty so far. It's perhaps best that today I don't venture too far out my office for any lengthy period of time, just keep to myself and do my job.

It's days like this that really test one's committment to change. It's real easy to slip back into old nasty thoughts and don't-give-a-damn attitudes. They're comfy old slippers to wear. But I have chosen the pointy high-heels of trying to live my beliefs. Sometimes I trip and fall, lose my balance, get blisters. They're not the most comfortable of footwear.

But I know that this world is not all there is to life. Sure it's crappy down here, but there's something way beyond anything we can imagine beyond this. That thought, and that thought alone, is what's keeping me going today. One step at a time...