The Jitters

I've got interior jitters today. It's the day I courier off a job application that could change my life forever. I know I'm more than qualified for the position, having spent 6 years doing exactly the same thing where I work now. And it's not everyday that you get someone with this experience! It's a pretty specialized job.

Just thinking about the implications of getting the position have had my mind in a whirl all weekend. If I get it I have to be ready to up and move to Australia very quickly. We're nowhere near ready right now, so I've drawn up a list of stuff we need to get done so we can be ready. Main thing to do - sort my son's gigantic collection of toys, junk and dog-hair under his bed and convince him that only the essentials go. I'm being ruthless on my stuff too. Cutting down to nearly-nothing. Started last night in the lounge and chucked out all sorts of things, but I need to go through it again and cut down on the stuff left still further.

I've been living in limbo for 7 years now, not sure if we'd be moving to Australia or staying here. It's a good cost-cutting way of living. You don't want to spend too much on stuff, just in case. You rethink new curtains and new toys - after all, you might not be able to take it with you.

It kinda makes me think of being ready for Jesus to come. We mosey along each day, not really thinking about being ready or getting ready, until suddenly there's a wake-up call (like Sept 11 when the world seems to be ending) and we realize perhaps we're not as ready as we thought we were. We rush around trying to get our house in order and make sure we're where we should be spiritually. But if things don't happen quickly, we soon fall back into our old ways.

This time I know I'm probably going to be physically ready to move, but I'm still not sure I'm so spiritually ready for Jesus to come. There are old habits and sins that just cling like tree-gum. I know what I need to do - but just never seem to get around to it. While sorting out my house and "life" perhaps I should also be sorting out my interior!

But today I'm just jittery - thinking too much, too many details whirling around my head, and with nerves on end. Change is exciting, but very, very scary.