God's Co-Incidences

If you listen, you can hear His voice. You gotta listen hard though...

After reading the book mentioned below, I found images from its pages on the overhead screen at church last night, emphasizing what I'd learned about the Man of Joy, the Man of Passion, the Man of Love. Calling for a choice to follow to the ends of the earth.

The sermon seemed directed to my heart. In fact I was pretty blown away when the guy preaching read a quote that said something like this: "You may feel like you've lost all hope, that all your dreams are gone and that God is absent. You may think I've left the land, that I refuse to answer your prayers. But I am still here. My ways are not your ways. I hear you, I am close to you. Return to me, learn to know the Real Me. Stand back and see what I'll do in your life."

WOW.

It really confirms what I've been feeling. That I need to make God a priority, not the things of this world, or my dream of what I think I should be doing here. That I need to seek FIRST His kingdom, above all else. Not focus on this transitory place, this blip on the timeline of eternity.

Yes, I'm still hollow, empty, lost. But that emptiness provides a place for Him to enter, a space for Him to fill. I desperately want passion, love, faith. He can give those. I just need to stop trying so hard and let Him in.

I've decided to take a month off worship team duty. I want to get to know the One I am supposed to be worshipping before I put on any more acts in His presence. I've got a month to spend rethinking my attitudes and perceptions. I've got a month to seek His face, cry for His heart in worship. I've got a month to go back to my First Love and learn to love Him again.

Lord, Jesus, God - please, help.....