Deadline Day

I'm living in the future today, well aware that I have a few very specific time limits and deadlines to meet. Things like dropping off 7 nicely-decorated and delicious cakes at a certain time, getting my car down to the glass guys at a certain time (garden services has just come by to apologize...), getting home for lunch at a certain time, making sure I finish quite a few things before I go off on study/exam leave for the rest of the week. There's this constant inner push to "go, go, go!", leaving me no time to just Be.

I used to thrive on days like this, but perhaps I'm getting old. I'm not into rushing around on a work-related adrenalin high anymore, and would much prefer to do things at whatever pace my body feels like at that specific moment. I used to thrive on stress, but now it wears me out.

It may also have something to do with my urge in recent years to try and simplify my life - to get rid of the non-essentials and leave me more time/energy for the stuff I truly enjoy.

Simplifying, initially, is pretty hard work! It's not enough just to stop doing something, but it sometimes takes effort to put a simpler routine or way of doing something into effect. It takes a while for it to become a lifestyle too.

I'm looking forward to the end of this week, when deadlines are not so pressing, when studies and exams are out of the way, when orders are filled and delivered, and I can take time out just to Be once more.