Be a Bad Parent Day!

Some days being a mom sucks - especially for your kid. I didn't have the best of mornings, and when I got home all I wanted was some space, quiet and a chance to clear the head.

Instead I have a child on holiday, bored already, and seeking attention constantly in ways that get me more and more irritable! It's not his fault...

When I became a single mom at 21, I told myself I'd do what I could, give up what I had to, so that my son would never feel neglected, 2nd best or that he was missing out. Boy, is that a hard one to keep up with! I have done OK mostly, but I hit patches where I just want some me time, a bit of peace and quiet - and to not be a mom for a little bit.

I should make an effort to make me-time - go out on my own, for instance, which I haven't done in 3 years now! (No-one to go with, as everyone's always busy or with the husband or kids) I try to do it after he's in bed, or when he's off with a friend. But some days that need to just have a break sneaks up during mom-hours and I tune out.

Like I did at lunch. I did the mimum mom-ing and then came back to the office early. I knew I wasn't giving him what he needs, what he deserves, yet I still did it. He gave me a long hug as I left, not wanting to let me go and starting to get that lower wobbly lip. I feel really bad when that happens, when it's my fault. I'd like to be SuperMom! but most days I'm not.

Today it's Be a Bad Parent day and I've stuffed up again.

::update::
Kid's just phoned (we're blessed with an "internal" line between home and office) to say he's done some of his holiday homework, given because we're buggering off during the term to Australia, and all seems OK with him. It's us adults that dwell on and enlarge the bad stuff. The kids shake it off and continue, mostly. Still, some days I feel like a total flop in the parenting department and I know I could be better if I could just make the effort.