Feelers

I'm putting out feelers today for a few bits of equipment for a potential worship team (musicians, sound, light and action!).

I haven't made a definite decision whether the @5 worship gathering will go ahead or not, nor when. I've realized that I can't build something, only God can. And that I don't need to wait until I'm a spiritual superstar in order to facilitate a gathering of people. For too long in the past, I've been exposed to worship leaders and teams where only the best, the most spiritual, the strongest can lead. Yet I can grow along with the others, surely?

I'm still thinking hard, and trying to pray, but in the meantime I'm looking at possibilities. Although it should be more than just a meeting, there is some basic equipment needed to start getting together. If I'm granted permission to use a part of the church, there is some stuff there - if they don't want anything to do with me, we'll need to find a whole lot more stuff elsewhere!

I want to be able to say "here, this is what we've got to work with" and then let those people God sends toward me get their hands dirty in making it happen.

So today I'm sending out feelers. Helping the Baptist church get rid of their old sound monitors, asking the head elder if there's a possibility of using that space, checking in with a group that may be able to donate other bits and pieces. Emailing dad to pick his brains, as he's worked his entire life with the organizational structure and knows how to put things so they make sense.

And I'm writing down random words to express the essence of what this thing could and should be - so that those who are curious, who may want to be involved, know what they're getting into. And those who think we're heretics will be able to pinpoint why! :)

It's not a one-man show, as much as it seems like it from this post. This has been coming for years, a "burden" on my heart, info gathered and stored, conversations remembered, connections made, ideas and plans and music all just waiting to be joined into one Big Thing. It has the potential to be very big, and that scares me. Small I can handle, big I'm not too sure.

But there I go again, thinking way too hard, way too far ahead. Today I just need to stick to putting out feelers.