Easter alone

Call me weird, but I've only just realized it's EASTER weekend. Yeah, I know - it's not like there aren't chocolate bunnies breeding everywhere you look lately (and have been since Xmas ended! exactly how fresh is that chocolate..?) - have stocked up on marshmallow eggs for the family that's going off tomorrow.

Here's the thing. This is the first Easter that's going to be very very different.

Back in the day it was tradition for the whole church group to go off to Hartenbos for Camp Meeting - a long-weekend religious gathering that's still happening this weekend, and is echoed in many other groups all over the world. I haven't done that since my kid was 1 though. (For the young folk it usually ends up as a hook-up session... but we won't go there)

And then I was quite church-involved at one stage, so Easter was a Big Thing. Special services, lots of planning (seeing I was the worship team pianist, I ended up working pretty hard for my holiday), a great deal of focus on the Meaning behind the weekend.

This year it's all changed. I'm not religious at all. I haven't actually admitted HOW not religious I am to anyone. In addition to that I'm going to be on my own for the first entire long weekend in a very very long time. 14 years at least. No family gatherings, no special nothing. Just me and my thoughts, my time, my schedule, my dreams & fantasies - to do what I please when I please. A 4-day weekend of empty house and to-do lists.

I've filled it up a little. Cars, last few boxes, organizing, a weekend spent cleansing my body (either a fast or a serious raw food thing, no Easter choccies). I'm likely to spend some time hanging out online. I may spend a good deal of it sleeping or just being quiet and still. I may push my body and run a bit. I've got some house things to organize too (phone line, security disks to get us in the gates).

Yup, a very different Easter this year. Who knows what next year will look like. Hey, it's one big journey.