Random Thoughts

There's nothing cohesive enough in my head to make an entire post of, so here are some of the snippets currently going through my brain:

* Virgin - one week later - has still not ported my Vodacom number. I've been stuck at "level 3 of 13" for most of the week, and bugging them once a day isn't helping. I honestly don't know what to do next. Except wait it out and keep bugging them, topping up my current number in small increments just to keep some airtime available. Funny thing this - I lose whatever credit I have when the Vodacom number ports - yet it's all on the same SIM card and no-one can tell me exactly when my current number will disappear, so I can't let the airtime run out before it goes! Mass confusion reigns.

* I've had to do some re-prioritizing today. As life shifts and settles into new places, so timelines and plans have to change too. I had a big thing planned with Olivia this coming weekend. It's having to be shelved in favour of another plan, with an adjusted timeline. Other things I was planning at the beginning of the year have completely fallen away when I changed jobs/homes. New things have been added. Life is flexible and fluid - if you insist on clinging to set schedules you're only going to stress out.

* I'm home alone tonight. My social butterfly teen has gone to Cape Town with his peers for a story-telling evening! He'll be back whenever. Good thing I'm a pretty relaxed parent.. :-) So tonight I get to do... what? Not quite sure yet. Except sit here in the half-dark, blogging and watching the neighbour across the way cooking his supper (wonder what's in the pot?}.

* I feel like I've shed so many things lately. Along with the few kilo's my sis-in-law noticed yesterday (more is yet needed - but I suspect I'm missing a cup size on the chest as a result.. dammit - must.eat.chocolate!), I've been shedding some set ideas I had about life in general. There are so many layers that I can't really blog about here that are slowly disappearing, once again exposing the real me, the soft and vulnerable me, the one that wants to trust and give and experience life in-depth without fear. It's been a work in progress for ages, but I feel like I'm finally getting there. Along with the shedding comes a new unshakeable confidence in who I am, in who I will yet be. It's very hard to put into words, it's easier lived. But it's good.

* I realized yesterday how much I like our little complex where the new home is. My brother, sis-in-law and nephew came by for lunch and we spent a good deal of time out on the communal lawn, dipping feet (and most of the kids) into the communal pool, hanging with some of the neighbourhood kids, or just sitting with doors and security gates wide open. One little 5 year old chick decided she'd come in and sit around my house - which was also fine. They dropped by to eat bananas and naartjies, and we took a look at the boy's YuGiOh card collection and took turns hitting a plastic bottle with his BB gun. It's more community than security complex. The shops are a short walk away, the neighbours not too bad at all. It's a comfortable, easy place to live - except for the idiots that tend to roar around with noisy cars and blaring music at all hours, but you get those everywhere. Here within our complex walls people walk in the evenings with their kids and their dogs, the guys gather for cricket on the lawn as the sun goes down, and whomever you come across gets a warm greeting exchange. Very nice.

* As much as I tend to pour the general contents of my brain onto this blog - there are still things that I don't talk about here, yet which fill up my days and my nights and my head and my heart and make me smile ear to ear... Who woulda thunk.

* I had the strangest dreams last night. If I wrote them down here you'd fear for my mental health. Hell, sometimes I do myself! :-)

* I am seriously better behind a camera than in front of it. Self-portraits especially suck.